Maybe It Was Him
This time last summer, everything was
different.
The sky was blue and bright, and the sun
was just perfect. It’s rays sent out a heavenly radiance from among the
perfectly placed clouds. I was glowing, maybe it was the sun, maybe it was him.
But not today, no. The sky is fire and the
sun is in rage, somehow not liking me as much as it did before. There were no
clouds, no mercy. I was burning, maybe it was the sun, maybe it was him.
This time last summer, everything was
different.
I put on my earphones and my favorite song
came on. It was in his calming, husky voice, and I loved it even more. I smiled through the
entire one and a half minute. I was joyful, ecstatic. Maybe it was the song,
maybe it was him.
But not today, no. I put the earbuds in and
put my phone on shuffle. It was a song I once loved but I dared not to listen
to, in a familiar voice, it haunted me as each second passed and tore me
slowly. I was miserable, shaken. Maybe it was the song, maybe it was him.
This time last summer, everything was
different.
The first rain of summer, saintly weather, and an unanticipated date. He held my hand firmly, while my
other palm was trying to catch as many raindrops as it could. The smell of rain
was making the moment perfect, as I looked at the perfectly painted sky. I felt
full, content. Maybe it was the rain, maybe it was him.
But not today, no. It was the first rain,
but the skies showered harder, the rain fell more aggressively, it didn’t like
me as much as before. I hesitantly held my hand out to feel the rain, but it
didn’t feel quite right. The smell pinched, stung me, deep inside. I looked up
at the sky but all I saw was roaring clouds. I felt scared, I felt empty. Maybe
it was the rain, maybe it was him.
This time, last
summer, everything was different.
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